bit of a vent
i also installed debian on my laptop tonight so at least i have a well rounded portfolio of coping mechanisms
bit of a vent
thinking about how i was waiting for school to be done so i could be less stressed but now that it is actually done i'm not less stressed at all and more things keep coming up and oh god this is just going to be how life is from now on isn't it
but i ate a pickle so i feel a little better now
seriously considering just learning the activitypub protocols and implementing a new platform like this from scratch. someone please hold me back i have things to do this week
trauma stuff
not gonna repost everything here but had a fun time on twitter earlier realizing that i almost certainly have some trauma going on in my brain that i need to start paying attention to and working through. not really looking forward to even more thinking about what I see as my flaws but it's nice to finally feel like i have somewhere to start after years
I'd love to be able to pop out individual DMs in Discord into their own minimal windows, so I can focus on the conversation and not have the giant sidebar taking up space and attention.
starting to think the reason i suck at note taking is that i don't pay enough attention to the use of what i'm actually recording. very often i use notes as just a vent/outlet for emotion, but there's no point writing down my daily todos if they're not somewhere i'm actually going to be looking at them when it's time to decide what to actually do
sleepy umbreon with depression and a soldering iron